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[ANoob]

 Journal 12/31/25

Looks like my nightmare is going to be happening soon. I am most probably going to have to go to the day program I mentioned many times in this journal. I am very embarrassed about what happened to me when I visited the program while having my worst saber disaster ever and feeling like I lost my vanity. Also the people at the program traumatized me because it reminds me so much of those what once was but now four times a year medical appointments. I am totally expecting nightmares tonight. I won’t be to mad at the dream weaver because I will understand why I had them.

Also I am considering buying a pixel saber. What a weird coincidence about timing. Also feeling jinxed because January is the month of the big medical convention I would love to go to in real life. Alway seams to happen in January when I have bad things happen to me.

Journal 4/6/25

I have made peace with myself about my broken saber. When the final break happened I was already under a lot of stress due to events in my like that coincide with the nightmares I have about wearing my saber to school and my old teacher or at day program. The good news is that someone at the day program I probably be attending said I can wear my saber. What a relief.   I did try dancing again with my back up dancing saber with smooth swing.  I managed to find a font that worked well enough to feel like I can get back into dancing.

I am watching two used saber online. One is a diamond US saber that other is by the other company’s saber use.   You won’t believe your ears in what I am probably going to buy. The saber actually has a Proffie pixel blade and board!  I did watch a video on what fonts it has. Their are the ones I mentioned before about the non US saber stunt saber I own.

[ANoob]

Journal 1/1/26

Happy New Year.

I am really wanting to do something pretty drastic about my non working sound sabers very soon. If I do go to the day program I would really like to have a proper dancing sound saber. That way I could socialize better with people. Every time I go to look at what soundboards are available from US and other saber brands I just end up feeling discouraged and frustrated. All I want are just a few sound fonts that US diamond sabers have with all of their parts of the code. Ex. Non smooth swing, stab, spin effects. Gestures part of the font would be a feature I would definitely keep. Very helpful for a dancer. Most other sound boards now use gestures to control the saber not like with diamond sabers they enhance the font and my dancing experience. Why do I ramble so much about this topic? My vanity perhaps. So frustrating.

[ANoob]

Journal 1/3/26

The dream weaver was very nice to me last night. In my dream I had gotten two new sabers from The Great. I can’t remember what custom one I bought but I also got a free mystery box saber that turned out to be a Grand Master LE stunt. I was very proud of the dream weaver because both of the sabers I got their stats vitals were proper and they both were fully functional. Thankfully I didn’t have to do with pixel or proffie sabers.

In real life I am thankful to have a very good dream because I have been expecting nightmares because I have to deal with the day program and face my worst living nightmares. When I do got to visit the day program this week I don’t know what to wear or what saber I should wear. I don’t want to wear the one that caused me to feel like I lost my vanity (Azure Fallen diamond). I don’t want to wear my every day saber because I don’t want to get mad and depressed and stop liking that saber.  I really want to wear my Archon v2.1 diamond because that is the saber I bought for day program. The only problem is that the saber doesn’t work. I may mess around with it some more to see what may be wrong with it. Now back to feeling discouraged about not having a fully functioning diamond saber.

[ANoob]

Journal 1/4/26

Breaking news! More then a major saber disaster. I actually lost my main everyday saber today. Thankfully it has given me the opportunity to buy a few other sabers I have been eyeing. I am probably am gong to have to go pixel for one of them. I fell sick as a dog right now. Even worse my vanity is shot. I don’t know to do in the moment. I believe the dream weaver was telling me something a few nights ago when I got new sabers in my dream. Will probably write more when I decide what to do.

Well I did it and went for the pixel saber. Probably will buy another from The Great.

[ANoob]

Journal 1/4/26 pt2

Well I did buy the pixel saber I had been eyeing since this whole round of day program mess. Not to mention my saber disaster I had today. I do no know exactly what the stats vitals are on the new saber. It is not an US saber. I probably bought without knowing it what looks like a probably a neo proffie saber. If it turns out to be I should stop rambling about proffie boards. Still really miss my US diamond sabers. I feel jinxed today and I also have a headache.

[ANoob]

Journal 1/5/26

Looks like I will be getting my new saber during the time I am celebrating the yearly medical convention (IMSH). I try no to do much in regards to sabers during the convention dates.

Good news is that the dream weaver left me alone last night. Very thankful.

To my journal I would like to apologize for so much rambling about soundboards especially since what I decided to do in regards to my newest saber. I kind of wish I went first with The Great and one of his sabers. Definitely wouldn’t buy one with sound.

Back to the newest saber, I am going to have to learn a whole new blade setup and soundboard. I hopefully won’t regret doing so.

[ANoob]

Journal 1/6/26

I really want to go to the medical convention this year because I didn’t go last year and I am feeling so sh*ty now because of the day program and my newest saber disaster. The medical convention is in San Antonio TX this year. Dates 1/10-10/14. Will be getting my new saber during that time. I did have a nightmare this morning. Thankfully I don’t think it had anything to do with sabers. That would have put the nightmare over the top of scary, frustrating and depressing. So many bad memories from past years during the medical convention dates on years I don’t attend the convention. Otherwise when I am at the medical convention I was having the time of my life.

I almost forgot that I am wearing my Archon v2.1 now because I am down my main everyday saber. I know my whole saber thing is a mess at the moment because I have no property working diamond sabers or daytime sabers in general. Oh my vanity!

[ANoob]

Journal 1/7/26

I dealt with the day program appointment today. I shared my nightmares with the person I met with. Felt so good to get those nightmares off my chest.

I didn’t let the dream weaver have its way with me last night. Thankfully I didn’t have a nightmare. I dealt with the nightmares in real life by doing some of the things I did in the dream in real life. I had two sabers on me. I was ready to dance or for disaster because I did have my back up dancing sound saber and blade in my bag.

On another note I hope to be able to dance with the new saber because at the day program there’s a dance class I will be taking.

[ANoob]

Journal 1/7/26

The Great was in my dream last night. Felt so good to have a nice time with the dream weaver.

In real life the day program I will be attending soon has an anime club on Fridays. Can’t pass that up. Hopefully I will meet someone who may want to go to the anime convention in real with me.

FIY medical convention starts tomorrow in real life. I don’t know if I will write here while celebrating the medical convention and honoring healthcare workers.

[ANoob]

Journal 1/10/26

First day of pre conference classes at the medical convention today. I am and will breaking my habit of writing during the medical convention this year because i will be getting a new saber during the time of the medical convention this year.

I can’t remember if it was this night’s dream or last night’s dream but I did see The Great recently and got two new sabers.  I know why in real life I am having such good times with the dream weaver is because I have been looking into other brands of sabers along with ones from The Great.

Since loosing my main everyday stunt saber I don’t know exactly why I feel so jinxed about what goes wrong in the month of January during the time of the medical convention if I am not attending it in real life.

[ANoob]

Journal 1/11/26

First night of medical convention today. Should I dress up like I usually do? I definitely will wear my Azure Fallen diamond today. That would be the saber I would have wanted to wear to the medical convention because that was the one I was trying to write a medical sound font play on. Sadly can’t do that anymore because the saber has no sound. Also why am I writing in this journal during the medical convention? I will definitely be at the medical convention in spirit today and the other days of the convention. So do miss being at the medical convention.

On the other hand I am anxious about my new saber. Really wish I stayed with The Great for an everyday saber. I don’t know exactly what to do about dancing now because the saber comes with a 36in pixel blade. Not good for socializing or dancing. The blade for a pixel saber can run about half the price of the hilt in some cases. I thought I was getting off cheep but will probably have to spend more on accessories for a pixel saber because all of my blades are for base lit sabers. I was just so frantic about my vanity, lost saber, and day program that I couldn’t think clearly about my newest saber.  Will probably write tomorrow even though it is the medical convention.

[ANoob]

Journal 1/12/26

I am honoring healthcare workers today because tomorrow I am getting my new saber. I am planning on doing something funny about clothes tomorrow. During the medical convention I usually dress as if I was at the convention but tomorrow I am going to go full out Star Wars like in my dream with the looking for The Great at a medical convention.

[ANoob]

Journal 1/13/26 part 1

Classic nightmare about sabers and getting into trouble at school or day program.  Well in this version of the dream I thought I had cleared up the my fear about wearing my saber to school or day program. I was caught by some students and they ratted me out to the teachers. I then was trying to find the document that in real life I had given to the day program about my sabers and nightmares in the dream. Couldn’t find the paperwork. Wanted to write in my journal and cry in my dream.

In real life I signed up for two days a week at the day program yesterday. Stupid dream weaver got me. I wasn’t expecting this nightmare to happen. Before bed I said I wanted to go to the convention in my dream but instead I got my classic nightmare. All the while I am celebrating the medical convention in real life. Feeling frustrated with the dream weaver this morning.

[ANoob]

Journal 1/13/26 part 2

Got the new saber today. It is a full out proffie pixel saber. The soundboard of my nightmares. Wish I had stayed with The Great and his brand of sabers. Wish me luck with the dream weaver. Will write more later or tomorrow.

[ANoob]

Journal 1/13/26

Have my first proffie headache. The new saber is my nightmare come true. I am exhausted today because of the dream weaver. I hope I have a good nights sleep. I haven’t been using real saber hilts at night just my plush one I made and a 32 in mid grade blade. I may try my newest saber tonight. I tried my v2 night blade last night but it was uncomfortable.  To tell you the truth I feel today like I did when I got my first ever saber from The Great.