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Journal 6/2/26

Just woke up to a version of the classic nightmare about wearing my saber to school or day program and getting into big trouble. Not fun. At least people who were not associated with who ever decided to do that to me in the dream supported me and wanted to help me get back into school or day program.

Recently I have been having a nice time with the dream weaver.

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Journal 6/3/26

At day program today I will be going out to the medical worksite with a different caregiver today. I am nervous around new people because of my saber. It takes me awhile to get used to new people especially at day program.

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Journal 6/6/26

My mother’s friends came over this evening and i didn’t want them to see me without my saber.  We ended up talking about day program and my work in the healthcare field. Also about coming to terms about the dancing how it will never be the same since The Great getting rid of diamond boards. Made me a little sad about the dancing. I do miss it. I also have been doing a lot of caregiving this week. The person I do caregiving for has such vanity about her lawn like I do about my saber. I actually helped her water it this week.

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Journal 6/8/26

I set a record on how many people in one grocery store commented on my saber. Two to be exact. They both remembered my old sabers I used to wear. I do miss wearing my Azure Fallen diamond. I don’t wear it because of how fragile it has become.

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Journal 6/9/26

Up with lousy dreams. I was showing off some sabers and they all broke. There were many more parts to this dream but I can’t grab them. Need to go back to sleep.

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Journal 6/14/26

Sadly no saber dreams lately. I was having very weird medical related ones last night. Still am doing more in the medical field then I used to to. Speaking of disasters in the medical field there may be an increase in customers where I work in the medical field because of the loss of a major medical supply distribution site in Tracy CA.

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Journal 6/19/26

Haven’t had any lightsaber dreams lately. They all have been medical related ones.  The only good one was that the caregiver at my day program was back. Turns out the dream weaver was rite about that. Hopefully she will be back. Yesterday I did use my Archon v2.1 as a sleep saber. It was very comfortable.

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Journal 6/21/26

The Insomnia Monster bit me very hard last night. Only slept a few hours it seemed like. Hopefully my day will get better.

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Journal 6/23/26

Just woke up to a very strange lightsaber dream.  I can just barely gab pieces of it.

In real life I had a wonderful time at the dance workshop at day program yesterday. Before I went yesterday I was doing some homework in case during the workshop we had to do the part that makes me sad and miss my diamond sabers. That part is when someone chooses a song and people dance to it however they want. I feel like what I was doing with the music and listening to the diamond soundfonts got the dream weaver to give me a strange dream. 

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Journal 6/23/26 part 2

I have been exhausted from the dream I had earlier. I went back to sleep and just woke up to the classic nightmare about wearing my saber to school or day program. I need to go eat will write more from the coffee shop.

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Continuing from yesterday

Well I just lost my journal entry.

Been having a crappy day. The dream weaver and the classic nightmare, loosing my journal entry. Hopefully I can have a better night with the dream weaver. So frustrated with the dream weaver.  The first of the dream was going ok with me wearing my saber but it turned out in the second dream it was not.

Journal 6/24/26

I had a way better day today.

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Journal 6/28/26

Insomnia Monster bit last night. When I did manage to get the best sleep last night I used three blades one was my v2 with night blade.

Almost tempted to try adding the soundfont I use for dancing to my proffie saber because i found an easy was to do so. Make that it probably wood require some programming and coding to get a proffie to work like an UltraSabers diamond saber. I know I can do that in my dream. In real life I don’t think so. I definitely would get a migraine.

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Journal from yesterday

Journal 6/29/26

Was checking my email to see what conventions The Great will be attending next. I got that information. Also I got a questionnaire form my prior case manager about how their support services are to me.  Hopefully I have not triggered the dream weaver or the Insomnia Monster tonight. I did share about the nightmares every time I had to meet with my case manager. Thankfully the one I have now has helped me understand my phobia. I really want to have a quiet night without those creatures bothering me.

Journal 6/30/26

The dream weaver did try to give me weird dreams this morning. And the Insomnia Monster was only mild last night.

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Journal 7/3/26

I almost had another saber disaster today. I got the neo pixel blade stuck in the saber. I did manage to get it out.  I did almost break the blade trying to get it out. That definitely is another reason I like base lit sabers better.

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Back log of journal entries

Journal 7/7/26

Been having weird dreams that probably were versions of my classic nightmare. Also I think I had the convention dream recently. Just can’t grab my dreams.

Journal 7/8/26

Had a very nice talk about my phobia of those meetings at day program with my group’s caregiver. She really understands my fear compared to most of the other people at the day program. They think it is almost funny about my phobia. Blame that dream weaver fore some of the problems. I know it is from the trauma and the worst saber disaster I had at at the day program. Really miss wearing my US sabers.

I also am frustrated with the website because of technology issues. Sorry for the back log of entries.