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Journal 2/10/26

Just lost a nice sized entry here.

Wish me luck with the dream weaver tonight. First day of day program tomorrow. Won’t be surprised if I wake up to the classic nightmare about sabers and day program. At my last meeting at the day program I was asked what were three fun facts about me. I couldn’t think on the spot at that time. I have thought of them now. They are
1. I wear a saber everyday
2. Speaks medical terminology
3. My journal is lonely of no one reads is

[ANoob]

Journal 2/11/26

First day of day program. I am writing this entry from day program. The dream weaver left me alone last night.
I am wearing my proffie saber today and I feel comfortable about myself.

I got talked into going to dance workshop today. I did pack my costume to wear to dance workshop.  Will write more later.

[ANoob]

Journal 2/15/26

Over the weekend my family had other members of their family over. You can only imagine how I wanted them to see me. I had to be wearing my saber and a mask. Talk about vanity. Also the dream weaver has been nice to me.

[ANoob]

Journal 2/17/26

Day program tomorrow. I feel like I am done with the nightmares. I still won’t be too surprised if the dream weaver attacks.  In real life I want to during writer’s workshop at the day program a few pieces about working with the nightmares about day program, apologizing to myself and others about how depressed I was about day program and my vanity, and just some personal debriefing about what was going on at that time. I feel like I can work with the trauma I have from the day program and its nightmares in real life rather then in my dreams.

On another note I was listening to some music yesterday that made me really miss my US diamond fonts. I wish I had the technological experience to find proffie versions of them and put them on my proffie saber.

[ANoob]

Journal 2/21/26

I rescheduled the appointment with the case manager yesterday. Very good news no classic nightmare last night. I really think I have made peace with the dream weaver about those nightmaress.  Hopefully when it comes to the big yearly review of my case I won’t have nightmares. I can almost grab some pieces of my dream I woke up to this morning. One part had to do with getting a whole bunch of new sabers and accessories for them from The Great. I was just about to show some of them off and a I can’t remember what type of natural disaster hit but I lost all of the new sabers and the one I was wearing on my hip probably my proffie one. I was so depressed in the dream.

[ANoob]

Journal 2/23/26

I went to writer’s workshop today at day program. I made a lot of progress on my writing project. I let the instructor of the workshop read my writing. They yet again re assured me that they would never do what happened in my classic nightmares about day program. The instructor was shocked by what the dream weaver did to me in regards to the dream where i was stripped of my clothes, saber and vanity. A cool thing about day program is that people like my trivia questions about me especially the one about me wearing a saber every day. That makes me feel happy and beautiful inside.

[ANoob]

Journal 2/25/26

The Insomnia Monster has been active in the household the past few days. Today is day program. The dream weaver has been nice to me. Tomorrow I meet with my case manager. That will be a test for the dream weaver. I hope the nightmares of wearing my saber to day program are over.

[ANoob]

Journal 3/1/26

Day program and writer’s workshop tomorrow. Looking forward to working on my writing project. I thought of another section to write about in it. I am going to write my inspiration for wearing a saber everyday.

[ANoob]

Journal 3/2/26

I finished my writing project about day program and sabers today. I feel like I am done with the dream weaver and those nightmares. It will be a test on Wednesday night because I am meeting with my case manager Thursday. The big test will be the big yearly meeting.

I shared my writing with the instructors of the writer’s workshop and they all like it. I feels so good to be comfortable with my vanity and my saber at day program.

On another note I have been rewatching some videos by The Great in order to attempt to trigger the dream weaver to give me some dreams about The Great.  I was watching one about diamond sabers and gesture programming that reminded me of my play that I am no longer able to write because of broken diamond sabers and no more diamond boards. Made me a little sad. .

Since now switching to neo proffie I never could imagine trying to rearrange the settings on it or writing a who new font and programming it.  I wish I did have my US diamond saber fonts on my proffie saber. Turns out out of the my best guess would be 15 fonts on that saber I only like one of them. I need to remind myself I dealt with the second major saber disaster  and day program mess I wgot off cheaper then I could have and without a falling into a depression. Still would love to buy another saber from The Great sometime soon. I am just too frugal about finances. Turns out the font I like I couldn’t buy it and put it on a saber from The Great because it is exclusive to the brand of saber that it was written for.

[ANoob]

Journal 3/4/26

Jinxed yet again. I have my meeting with my case manager tomorrow. Turns out that one of the anime conventions The Great attends starts tomorrow. The one where the setting for my play would have taken place. I have been having weird dreams but thankfully not that classic nightmare about wearing my saber to day program. I feel that I have come a long way since I started working with my fears, nightmares, depression, anxiety and other related symptoms. My mood is so much better. I will probably share some parts if not the whole piece of my writing I did about my nightmares and day program here. I may be a bit crabby today but thankfully not depressed.

[ANoob]

Journal 3/5/26

Turns out I am not jinxed. My case manager is not feeling well today so I don’t have to go see them. I didn’t have any nightmares last night. I really feel like I am done with those dreams. I do remember a piece of my dream from last night. The piece I can remember was I was wearing my proffie saber in it.

Before I went to bed last night I tried to yet again trigger the dream weaver to give me a dream about The Great. Didn’t work. I did however crack up with his introduction to v5 sabers and how I coined the term “pulling a Great.”

[ANoob]

Journal 3/6/26

The dream weaver bit and I am up with the classic nightmare about my saber and school. I thought I was done with that dream. I woke up to the feeling of a dream but then realized it was that classic nightmare. I guess I spoke too soon about getting rid of that nightmare.

[ANoob]

Journal 3/6/26 pt 2

After that night with the dream weaver I decided to take it easy and sleep today. Just woke up to yet a different bad dream. This time it was a major saber disaster with my proffie saber. In the dream I was showing it off and the whole saber fell apart. I then was trying to put it back together but that didn’t end well and I ended up burning up some boards in it. Thankfully it was just a dream.

On another note I hope everyone is haven’t a fabulous time at the anime convention whis weekend. The convention this weekend is happening at the setting for my play.

[ANoob]

Journal 3/9/26

Day program and writer’s workshop today. I wrote to my case manager today. I will be meeting with them tomorrow. Hope the dream weaver doesn’t bite. I will be sharing with my case manager the writing piece about my day program, saber disasters, and nightmares with them. That dream weaver can be such a pain.

Since I wrote last I did end up using a proffie saber in the dark to get around. Very cumbersome. Definitely wouldn’t want to use it for disaster.

[ANoob]

Journal 3/10/26

Met with my case manager today. Shared my writing about my saber disasters, nightmares, and day program with them. Felt so good to get that off my chest.

The dream weaver left me alone last night but it did bit me yesterday while taking a nap. Did have a different common nightmare. Can’t remember much of it. Was having technology problems in it.