I am sorry that I did not see this thread when you were in your darker days, but thank you for opening your heart and mind up to us like that. This forum is full of amazing people, and I see that more and more each day.
You seem to have truly improved, both in your habits and your outlook. Hugs to you for that. <3
I wish you continued hope and healing, and I look forward to more of your updates. Hang in there, and if there is anything any of us can ever do for you, just say the word.