Venting.

[LightAndDark]

Hey guys, so Ive been having to deal with severe depression/anxiety, and even had some psychotic symptoms all throughout high school. I just posted something in the Off Topic Area called " Has anyone here been to the dark side and back?" I honestly feel quite stupid for posting it, as I know it has a lot of touchy and controversial topics relating to how I felt. I wish I had seen this page sooner so I would have a place to put it. Its been a very rough past few years for me, as Ive had to deal with suicidal thoughts for all of high school on my own, even had delusions that I was supposed to save the world,people could hear my thoughts, was seeing things that werent really there, and it felt like I broke on the inside. And didnt gain any support from anyone since I kept it a secret. Im new here and I dont really know anyone, and as you can tell first impressions are difficult for me haha. So if you see me post anything dark here, just know that I cant help it. And I am going to try and seek help this weekend, so fingers crossed that there will be a place for me to go....

[Edon Bluewolf]

LAD, this is a good place to vent 

You'll find our forum members to be very kind and supportive, even Logos! 

Having suffered from depression, anxiety, and psychosis myself, I know it is tough but hang in there and keep reaching out to others, even though a lot of people may not understand, there are some who will and you will be surprised to find help and comfort where you least expect it. 

[Jev Moldara]

 Loneliness and boredom suck. Especially around the holidays.

[Racona Nova]

Battlefront's Arcade Scenarios, especially the Dark Side, are virtually impossible to beat on Level 3. I barely managed to complete the Light Side battles at L3, but only by checking the settings, Dark Side L3 is not possible. Almost all scenarios have the "Last Stand" modification or however it's called in the English version (one death will result in a loss), but you'll die at least three times even in L1 and L2. And the very last scenario (Use the Dark Side, "Onslaught" mode) has a ridiciulously short timer of only three seconds after the first kill.

Without a time-freeze hack in the onslaught modes or unlimited health hacks in the other ones it's not possible. And I'm already quite good in Arcade, so I can calculate my chances quite precisely.

[Jev Moldara]

The loneliness I've been feeling for the past five or so years is finally taking its toll on me. Things that used to bring me joy are now like ash in my mouth. I just want to sleep, like all the time. I feel hollow, empty, and dead inside, as if nothing I do has any meaning.

The worst part is that I have nobody to talk to about it because when I finally decide to do so, suddenly I become the one listening to them talk about their own issues, as apparently I'm a good listener.

It's really pushing down on me, crushing my soul, and the holidays aren't helping. I hear about how happy people are, and I just sink further, but I still put on a brave face in public because I don't want to ruin people's days by being the grumpy, sad person. I am already emotionally closed off from everyone, and I can't help that (it's part of my own psychological makeup), but even the fake platitudes and feigned interest in everyone else's lives helps me get through the drudge of another day. If I lose that, I really will disappear into nothing.

[LightAndDark]

The loneliness I've been feeling for the past five or so years is finally taking its toll on me. Things that used to bring me joy are now like ash in my mouth. I just want to sleep, like all the time. I feel hollow, empty, and dead inside, as if nothing I do has any meaning.

The worst part is that I have nobody to talk to about it because when I finally decide to do so, suddenly I become the one listening to them talk about their own issues, as apparently I'm a good listener.

It's really pushing down on me, crushing my soul, and the holidays aren't helping. I hear about how happy people are, and I just sink further, but I still put on a brave face in public because I don't want to ruin people's days by being the grumpy, sad person. I am already emotionally closed off from everyone, and I can't help that (it's part of my own psychological makeup), but even the fake platitudes and feigned interest in everyone else's lives helps me get through the drudge of another day. If I lose that, I really will disappear into nothing.

I get that. That is exactly how I was feeling for about 4 years, and I can tell you that worrying about what others think was the one thing that prevented me from getting the help and support that I needed. I would definitely adress how you are feeling and think about seeing someone who could help you. It sounds like depression to me, and while I am not a therapist or psychiatrist, I can recognize the symptoms of it and and can tell you that it could get worse over time if it isn't taken care of immediately. The longer you wait, the more it will affect your life.

[Darth Logos]

Hey guys, so Ive been having to deal with severe depression/anxiety, and even had some psychotic symptoms all throughout high school. I just posted something in the Off Topic Area called " Has anyone here been to the dark side and back?" I honestly feel quite stupid for posting it, as I know it has a lot of touchy and controversial topics relating to how I felt. I wish I had seen this page sooner so I would have a place to put it. Its been a very rough past few years for me, as Ive had to deal with suicidal thoughts for all of high school on my own, even had delusions that I was supposed to save the world,people could hear my thoughts, was seeing things that werent really there, and it felt like I broke on the inside. And didnt gain any support from anyone since I kept it a secret. Im new here and I dont really know anyone, and as you can tell first impressions are difficult for me haha. So if you see me post anything dark here, just know that I cant help it. And I am going to try and seek help this weekend, so fingers crossed that there will be a place for me to go....

Long ago. If you want to discuss in private, feel free to PM me.

The loneliness I've been feeling for the past five or so years is finally taking its toll on me. Things that used to bring me joy are now like ash in my mouth. I just want to sleep, like all the time. I feel hollow, empty, and dead inside, as if nothing I do has any meaning.

The worst part is that I have nobody to talk to about it because when I finally decide to do so, suddenly I become the one listening to them talk about their own issues, as apparently I'm a good listener.

It's really pushing down on me, crushing my soul, and the holidays aren't helping. I hear about how happy people are, and I just sink further, but I still put on a brave face in public because I don't want to ruin people's days by being the grumpy, sad person. I am already emotionally closed off from everyone, and I can't help that (it's part of my own psychological makeup), but even the fake platitudes and feigned interest in everyone else's lives helps me get through the drudge of another day. If I lose that, I really will disappear into nothing.

Same applies to you as well.


In a less depression oriented vent, bB & Lady K will know why I'm so frustrated, but guess what finally decided to work this morning?

[Lady Agana Kath]

It can't be the washer reservoir, we concluded that had a leak after the gallon went flowing past my feet... soooo headlight?

[Darth Logos]

It can't be the washer reservoir, we concluded that had a leak after the gallon went flowing past my feet... soooo headlight?

Headlight I replaced yesterday. I texted you. While replacing the headlight I found out that the funnel to the reservoir twists to unlock, and can be removed, which now makes me think that I was overfilling it and I had a clog in the line. I don't know what the issue is, but it's working fine for the moment.

[Lady Agana Kath]

Headlight I replaced yesterday. I texted you. While replacing the headlight I found out that the funnel to the reservoir twists to unlock, and can be removed, which now makes me think that I was overfilling it and I had a clog in the line. I don't know what the issue is, but it's working fine for the moment.

I do actually remember that text.   For all I know you were announcing your success at fixing the thing to the forum. (good job, btw) Fingers crossed it keeps working. Now you don't have to call to complain  

[Darth Logos]

I do actually remember that text.   For all I know you were announcing your success at fixing the thing to the forum. (good job, btw) Fingers crossed it keeps working. Now you don't have to call to complain  

Still need to call and see what he wants to do to make sure the work is free from future hassles.

[That1GrayJedi]

Battlefront's Arcade Scenarios, especially the Dark Side, are virtually impossible to beat on Level 3. I barely managed to complete the Light Side battles at L3, but only by checking the settings, Dark Side L3 is not possible. Almost all scenarios have the "Last Stand" modification or however it's called in the English version (one death will result in a loss), but you'll die at least three times even in L1 and L2. And the very last scenario (Use the Dark Side, "Onslaught" mode) has a ridiciulously short timer of only three seconds after the first kill.

Without a time-freeze hack in the onslaught modes or unlimited health hacks in the other ones it's not possible. And I'm already quite good in Arcade, so I can calculate my chances quite precisely.

I didn't die once on L1 or L2? I havent Tried L3 yet, but even L2 was just boring and simple.

[Racona Nova]

Maybe just the wrong char or tactic...nevertheless, L3 of the last one is still ridiciulously short. Saw a vid on Youtube, that guy used Bossk and increased the timer from 3 to 30 secs, though...

[Noctis]

183656 positive statements about a thing on Yahoo or Amazon or wherever . . . . and that one guy who takes the time to reply to every single one with, "Well, I HATE this thing!"  or "If you like this, you're STUPID."

Bro, why don't you take a seat.  Take a seat, right over there. 

[Samhain138]

Just spent a bunch of time shooting my spin wars demo and the camera was out of focus.  I can't even right now.